Death 1

-"We live to die , and die to live"

My look has changed

First of all, the blogs name has now officially changed from What’s On A Blond Mind to Emo on Paper.

This is a big difference, and my appearance has changed with the name.

A typical symptom of borderline personality disorder (BPD) is to have identity issues, I have suffered a lot under that through my childhood, but overall i always have been a bit alternative in the norms eyes. Liked black/read hear, light skin, pricings and tattoos and so on. And I have all that. But when I startet the blog here, I was a pleaser and just hungered for acceptance and had a boyfriend at the time I was madly into, that liked "normal" girls. So that’s is all i tryed to be NORMAL.

But i have grown and accepted who I am and what I like, and who is the Jude of what is normal? And is normal really that great? So after we broke up (I don’t judge him, I could have had been lass a pleaser) I started to be me again, cause when your inner you doesn’t fit with the outer you, you are very unhappy. You attract the wrong people and people misjudge who you are. And that sucks! But the fact is that people (myself as well) Jude by appearance, some more than others.

But what I have learned from all this, is that I should be me no matter what, and I will never again try to be something or someone I’m not, just to please society a boyfriend or whatever!

But a scare after all this is that when people judge me or something I wear or like, I can now get a bit too defensive. But I am working on that ^^

Behind the blog - wanna be 2011     Behind the blog - wanna me (2013)

Peace out peeps  :) and remember to stay true to yourself! 

"Blog Reopening"

I stopped blogging cause too much happened in my life, a little too fast for my little twisted head.

Unfortunately not for the better, and I didn’t want to get all (poor me campaigneish).

But I have grown, and I am now seriously considering to "reopening" my blog.

But I am considering to change it a bit.

Frist of all, the name What’s On A Blondes Mind will probably change to Being in A Borderline’s Mind or Emo on Paper.

This time I'm not going to stop blogging when I don’t only have shinny happy things to talk about, but dig in and share. 

As self-therapy and for those out there, that have BPD (borderline personality disorder), to let you know: You are not alone. And for those who are still trying to understand life with BPD.

I want to break the taboo! I want to say I have borderline and be okay with the statement! And I want other BPDs to feel the same.

We are not a sick unintelligent bunch of people! My own philosophical conclusion is actually that we are over stimulated with thoughts, feelings and intelligence. That is why we are hurten. The cleverest minds of time like Einstein, Darwin and Andy Warhol where not in their life’s acknowledged or understood, because others around them didn’t know better. I don’t want to first be acknowledged when I’m dead! Just becouse others don’t understand me, and neither should you!

So :) as you can see it’s a change if u have visited my blog before, and if you are a newcomer. Welcome! Feel at home take a cop of coffee and enjoy! My life is from now on an open book, feel free to read it, comment or follow :)

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